… I asked myself that after I hung up the phone all numb from the news my best friend delivered to me crying her beautiful eyes out. It was 3 days before Christmas and she had just been diagnosed with cancer and awaiting to be scheduled to undergo a major surgery early in the New Year! My heart was aching and pounding right out of my chest and my mind was going in 10,000 directions. Surprisingly, I stayed calm and calmed her down and reassured her that this will be “our” winning battle to beat this #@&!%$# together.
You see, she is my oldest and bestest friend. We grew up together and shared every single up and down and sideways of life together with massive amounts of laughter along the way. Never a dull moment with this one I tell ya! She is a huge chunk of my world.
I almost sunk into depression for the next few days. My energy evaporated, I was drained, couldn’t digest it and had to drag myself out of bed and push myself out the door almost everyday for a few days after that. It’s still all quite hazy! Then, one morning I got up super early and went for a run in the dark. Yup! One of “those” runs. Within the first few minutes my brain and my heart freed up all the anger, sadness, depression, etc. and I was absolutely ready. That was that.
So here it goes out to you:
“My love,
I feel your pain. I’m not just saying it but I AM feeling it to my core. I carry the weight of the world just as you have been for so many years standing by your mom fighting her battle with “the beast” and now you’re fighting yours in such tender silence. Your silence is my scream within. I am standing taller and stronger than ever, as for you, it comes so very natural to me. Lean on me. This is yet another one of OUR journeys.
I listened to your message, over and over again, confiding in me in tears the other day. I have shed and shared your every tear, my sweetest. I assure you this is just a release of our pain and from here on in we will have nothing but tears of victory and much more laughter.
Now, listen and listen to me well because here comes the good news and the best part: I am and will be there by your side every step of the way from afar and in person very soon (or shoon!). 🙂
I will be your constant reminder of the LOVE, the STRENGTH and the LAUGHTER that you have brought to my life for all these years. I have no doubt that this is yet another bump on the road for us and we will overcome this too.
You’ve always been my symbol of positivity. Let’s show the rest of them what quality yummy Lemonade really tastes like! Yeah… Let’s show off!
I cannot wait to see you in the New Year and review all the stories of the smoking tires, your ridiculous MJ T-shirt at my “personalized” B-day!, the famous D-party, Grease “signature” songs, my ripped pink pants (classic!) and the Peruvian hat, while adding more memories to the list. And if you push me hard enough I might post a certain dance move photo (“Jump up and catch me!”) on Facebook too! That photo can change the world!! LOL!
Happy New Year again and again and again cause it will be one of our best … XOXOXOXOX”
So to answer the question: HELL YA! Not only I can do it again, but I’ll be stronger than ever and PERFECT it.
“To heal the burning of your sorrow,
I seek a flame.
To gather the dust of your door,
I seek the palms of my hands.
To deal with you hiding behind your holiness,
I seek a good time instead.” ~ Rumi
